A moment in time...

I want to keep blogging but I find myself getting mired in the weeds of my life. Instead of writing about the amazing existential experiences I’m having, what comes out are a lot of mundane details about moving and getting settled in a new town. Instead of sounding like an synthesis, it sounds like a journal. Not that there’s anything wrong with a journal, but it isn’t the voice I’m trying to express.

Instead of trying to craft the perfect piece, I'm going to just put a few tidbits here tonight. Every time I can, I'll put a few more. It will be more like a mosaic than a landscape but eventually the bigger picture will become clear.

This morning I was talking to one of my preceptors about how things have been going and in addition to saying that I was having SO much fun, I acknowledged the constant slog that the pace of residency brings to one's life. I said it was sort of like a hamster wheel but sensing that was not quite what I meant she quipped, "It's like Groundhog Day, except everyone else is on repeat too." That was a great comparison.

At some point during the last few weeks it occurred to me, “You will learn as much between now and the end of your residency as you learned between your first and last days of medical school.” Considering how much I’ve already learned, that is a pretty shocking statement about how much more there is to know when settling into a specialty.

Some of my favorite truisms involve allowing for imperfection. Probably because I need to be reminded that human-ness is allowed. One that I have been latched onto recently came from my residency orientation about wellness - Something is better than nothing.

So in the spirit of giving myself something, I have found a new name for this blog. I don’t know if I will officially change it or start over with a new blog or just use it as a subtitle. Now that I’ve gotten the MD, I find this journey is about getting to ME. So welcome to the new blog - it’s going to be messy, sporadic, evolving, unpredictable and imperfect. I’m going to love it!